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This timely and sensitive documentary explores the lives of Orthodox-Jewish LGBTQ Israelis who choose to marry heterosexuals in order to create a family and comply with their own and their communities’ expectations. Some shared their secret with their partners; some kept it hidden, and some lied even to themselves. After their divorces, they confront the conflicts they repressed: love for their faith and the Orthodox way of life as well as love for their own gender; wanting children, family and community and wanting to be true to their identity; love and respect for their spouse and their inability to continue in the relationship. The film’s subjects reveal how they come to terms with their journeys from shame and regret for the pain they have caused their ex’s to, for some, self-acceptance and social activism. Many still live Orthodox lives and consider themselves to be people of faith. Two elements of the film that explore groundbreaking territory are hearing direct testimonies from the women who married and divorced their LGBTQ partners as well as the deliberations and perspectives of well-known Israeli Orthodox rabbis and psychologists who seek a solution to what appears to be an unsolvable conflict.

Accompanying the film premiere is a discussion with director Mordechai Vardi, Eshel founding director Rabbi Steve Greenberg, Florida International University professor Jessie Abouarab, panelist Motti Salzberg, and moderator Miryam Kabakov, executive director of Eshel. To view the conversation please click here.

This panel discussion was made possible with the support of Eshel, a national organization that provides a future and hope for Orthodox LGBTQ people by supporting them and their families. To learn more about Eshel visit eshelonline.org


Sponsored by the Steven J. Green School of International & Public Affairs.

The Miami Jewish Film Festival virtual program is made possible with the generous support of Benjamin Nahum and Tamar Roodner.

  • Year
  • Runtime
    63 minutes
  • Language
  • Country
  • Premiere
    South Florida Premiere
  • Director
    Mordechai Vardi
  • Screenwriter
    Mordechai Vardi
  • Cast
    Zvi Ben Meir, Yarden Naor, Sophie Kotovsky, Rabbi Avia HaCohen, Rabbi Ronen Lovich
  • Cinematographer
    Mordechai Vardi, Raaya Vardi-Tebul
  • Editor
    Gideon Lazman
  • Music
    Avi Belleli