This video piece explores (psychic) surgery, body modification, and other gender affirming procedures as a site of trans healing and identity building. It embraces the visceral nature of surgery (not shying away from the blood, guts, or horror) but also the agency that access to surgical transition procedures gives trans patients over the fate of their bodies. The video was shot in December 2022, two months prior to the director’s top surgery in February ‘23, after over a year of planning, preparation, waiting, and schedule changes for the procedure.